realised during practice today that my skills hav really dropped alot. though i noe the important portion of our erhu melody, 渐强，渐弱，激情，柔弱, just cant seem to play them out. hmmm, did i mature or was it just my sucky skills now? i guess shld be the latter. Gonna resume practising erhu everyday. Mustnt neglect my laopo man. Later she asked for divorce...(k lame -.-)

gim thia was asking himself(and me) that he didnt know y he forsake huang cheng for co, "CO was so sian, i could hav been a zhu zhang in huang cheng instead" Well, it leads me into pondering too. I joined CO in jc as then i was still very passionate about CO. Another factor was the presence of snrs, ningfei, bong, libo, jian kai etc (n new, friendly fun snrs like enqi etc). I simply like snrs! Dun like the feeling that im the elderest. Easily to be lost without guidance. Soon, we had our concert and the snrs left, abruptly? Though it feels that they are still with us for the rest of 2006, i became lost. Suddenly felt nothing towards erhu, then CO.

it began with finding lianing erhu a chore. Well, so wat if i obtain a good grade for distinction? so wat if i improved alot for this private lesson? The main motivation for me was my peers. With pro and talented pple like yuhao, hongfei etc ard me, i had to pia hard so that i wun feel inferior. well indeed i improved alot in sec 4 n j1. my skills matured in fact, quoted by zhanglao "听起来像拉了很久的人" (4 years of learning is damn short) soon the competition among us laxed and poof, there goes my interest. Quitted xulao lesson without feeling anything.

Well, to gim thia (whom i dun think he noes my blog, heck care. im used to talking to myself on my blog anw), im proud to say that the reason for me to practise erhu and stay in CO now is my peers! I really play for them now and i want to play my best for them. I guess it wun feel gd failing ur friends rite? I want to make this syf an memorable experience for this new-found CO friendship in jc. An advice is that, try to noe everyone well and hav a fun time with each other. At least, there wun be regrets rite?

On a higher note, i went to sch at 830 to jog with wenqi and junzhi (wenqi is freaking fast for a gal), had xiaozu, chatted more with lan lao shi as he joined us for lunch, had a dazu where we improved again, played soccer again with CO peeps, lionel daoteng + jnrs (the soccer gene runs in the blood of co pple i guess). Going Sentosa tmr with xyz peeps! I love co.