read his blog just now, its really chanced upon it unintentionally. Thought he ceased writing in his blog long ago. the content stunned me, kept me reading it for 40+mins when i was actually preparing to slp already.

haha i agree, life is such a fucking joke, in ur words haha

i got to know the other side of someone, the more human side. not the pretentious, always-smiling 1. shld hav expected it long ago, afterall im also one of them. damn it.

i didnt know theres so much sorrow, angst behind someone who's always smiling!
he loves her more than i do.

.......

Once upon a time, there was a country named "Land of Happiness", filled with lotsa of laughter and joy everyday. There were countless wonderful circus performances and just in case anyone who was still not happy, there was a doctor of happiness who can always prescribe remedy of joy to his patients.

One fine day, one patient came and consult the doctor. He was always sad and weeping. That horrible feeling will only end when he was working. However, after work, the feeling will worsen each time, each day.

Understanding the situation, the doctor said: "Go and watch a performance by our most famous clown in our country! For all my patients, it worked! so it must also work on you too!"

The patient kept quiet and replied that he will try that method.

1 week later, the patient came again, crying even more badly. The doctor asked:"How can that be? It must work on you too!"

The patient, with tears uncontrollably flowing down, said: "I am the clown that u mentioned...But now even i am working, seeing all my audience laugh happily, my heart feel even more terrible than before... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :'( "

... my friend, i dare say that i will make an effort to be know u further and be closer friends with u, cos i want to.

"Like LOL its so funny, we are all such sad people! So ridiculous I must say! I could laugh til my tear glands go dry!"